Why hold back?

I had a friend tell me once that I should just say what I feel and not worry about the consequences. He had a little bit more courage than I do. Because of his courage we are the greatest friends to date. But I don't think I would have had the same courage.

I always hesitate to tell somebody what I really think. Especially when you are talking about feelings. Feelings are a part of the soul, and if those feelings are not acknowledged or reciprocated then it can cause scars. And I guess I still have some of those scars.

But holding back is not helping either. There is always that area of "what if" and you never know unless you actually say what you want to say. I do believe saying what I want to say will not cause a bunch of mess, but there is still that fear.

I will one tell this person what I want to say. It is definitely not anything bad! No matter what their reaction is I need to tell this person what I am feeling. Holding back is doing nothing for me. Or the other person. They just keep wondering because everyday they ask "what's on your mind" and I say "nothing"!!!! LOL They just don't know there is so much running through my brain that I just am not ready to admit yet.

I will eventually tell, in due time! Hopefully when I do I won't get a strange look, but maybe a great conversation! And I can finally get past some of the fears I have of telling people how I really feel about them. Ugh... Life is hard sometimes! But fun!!!!