I know what makes me happy

My friend told me that I had to find the thing that makes me happy.... I have struggled to figure it out and have cried over it. I have sat in my home and wondered what in the hell am I doing. For awhile I have been so unhappy. I just couldn't understand.

SO.... I sat back, turned off the tv, turned off the phone and figured out when I was my happiest. Then it came it to me.....

I love sports. I will sit and watch a game in a heartbeat. When I have discussions about sports I think I am at my most passionate state. I love it when men know that I know what I'm talking about. Dealing with sports has gotten me through some rough times.

I started to wonder if I go through my "rough spots" when I don't have sports in my life. Ummm.... yeah I do. I love sports so much. My original goal in life was to be a pediatrician. Then I decided to go into broadcast journalism. I left both of the dreams in the past because of the fear of not being successful. Thinking that it wasn't what I was destined to do. I can't do that anymore. I need to do what makes me happy because nobody (best friend, love of your life, dog, cat, etc.) can make me happy but me. I'm tired of crying. I need to step out and do it!

So I'm going to launch my own sports website that discusses my favorite topics in sports. It will be an area to blog, give opinions about sports topics and talk trash about your favorite team.

This is my happy place. This is where I feel comfortable and I am doing something that I love. Many people don't get it. Its ok. I love it.

For awhile now I have been relying on others to help me find my happiness and help me get to that happy place. I can't do that any longer. It's up to me to make this happen. I'm going to see it through....