What is meant for you, is meant for you

I've been on this earth for 34 years. Prayerfully I will be on this earth many more. But one thing I don't want to continue to do is compare my life with someone else. I have a bad habit on looking at other people's situations and thinking that I have done something wrong so I'm being punished.

I've actually had someone tell me that I wasn't married because there was something wrong with me. I looked @ him like he was a damn fool! But at the same time I began to question myself. I began to wonder why it was easy for some people to find the person that they were meant to fall in love with. I began to question why some people who I KNEW were evil as hell and had done some real low down stuff were able to find their mate. Where was my mate?

I have always been a strong woman. I've been able to handle situations that many people probably couldn't. Death, poverty, hunger... you name it, I've done it! In the end I have grown and become stronger.

But there is always that part of me that wonders if the "family life" is meant for me. I'm I meant to be a wife, a mother to other children, a grandmother (in the future)? Or am I meant to be single for the rest of my life? I will admit I do get discouraged. I see others and I do become very jealous. That is human nature.

But then I remember my faith. I know that God is not done with me. God wants me to enjoy ME. God wants me to enjoy MY STRENGTHS and live everyday in His glory. That has been a true struggle for me.

Despite everything that seems to be going wrong in others eyes, there are some things that are going right. I have to truly believe that God has a plan. My faith must endure and know that what is meant for me is meant for me. Because I cannot see it now does not mean that it is not there. And my biggest obstacles is believing!

It is a slow journey for me but I am getting there. I truly believe that there is a plan for all of us. We are dealt circumstances to prepare us for what God has in store. I need to look at these situations that I find myself in as preparation.