Matters of the heart are so complicated. One day you meet someone and you may hope that the person is "the one". You may date for awhile and then find out that the person was not who you thought he/she was. I seem to run into that problem all of the time.
Then you meet someone who is absolutely perfect. He/she is the person that you have always dreamed of. They treat you with the utmost respect, genuinely enjoy your company, you just have a great time with this person. But in the end it can never be. That person belongs to someone else. This situation also seems to follow me.
Finally there is the person that you want so bad, but they don't want you. You try to prove yourself to that person. You want them to know that you are desirable and that you have much to offer. But to no avail "they are just not that into you". I haven't had those problems as of late, but I have seen this road before.
Needless to say I have seen all three of these situations at some point in my lifetime.... Of course through these situations, i have seen the heartache too. But despite all of that I decided to continue to give love a chance.
A good friend told me that this was a quality that he liked about me so much. Even though I have been through hell and high water with men, i still decide to give love a try. I have to. I truly believe that there is someone out there for me who wants to be with only me. There will be no strings attached. There may be ups and downs but we would both be willing to work through those issues.
Recently, i had to decide to let a man go because i thought he was taking me for granted. I knew that he cared for me, but it wasn't going the way that I truly believed was in the best interest of my heart. Was it hard? Hell yeah... I cried about it because I truly do care for this person. But "timing" was and is so crucial. The time for "us" was not at that time. But I had to come to realize that this didn't mean that our "time" would never be.
Even though I get knocked down by love time and time again, i choose to get up. I choose to keeping fighting the fight. I choose to still believe that my "man" is out there looking for me as I am looking for him. We shall see. One day he will be revealed....
